IF Disguise

This little bear of mine is really sure that no one will recognize him in this disguise! In a way don't we all wear a disguise of some sort? I know that I disguise myself as an adult and I am really a child. I still want love and food and to be taken care of. But the reality of it all is that I have to take care of MYSELF....Not so bad...but sometimes it would be nice to be patted on the head and told "it will be all right". And know that this person knows what they are talking about. Sometimes a frantic feeling takes over and questions fill my head, what if, how and why will it all work out. But I guess in the long run it is what it is and I then look elsewhere for distractions and like a child go on to a new subject! I love this bears headdress. Wouldn't it be funny if we all walked around with headdresses on. Not hats just lovely whimsical head dresses. Might cause a problem on a bus on in a restaurant...funny idea....oh well ...not much to say, I send my healing thoughts to all affected by the Hurricane and I hope they get back to normal soon. I'm posting a picture of one of the planters outside of my city hall. I love the colors and the succulents.....I feel a painting coming on..........

IF Imperfect

This little girl has worked very hard to make her Mother this cake. She is sooo excited to present it to her. And I think from the look on her Mother's face the cake is a big hit! My Grandmother used to make the best white cakes with white icing and place it on a white milk glass plate. She knew it was my favorite so every birthday she would make me one. I'm sure my face looked much like the little girls in my picture. I have the stove my Grandparents bought in 1935. I use it everyday and think of them all the time. When my oldest Granddaughter was about 3 years old. I had her make a cake (white of course) and use my Grandmothers old bowls and bake it in my oven. It was delicious of course and if I can find the picture I took I will post it....I was going through old photos of my family this weekend. Both paternal and fraternal. I have always wondered if I would have been friends with my Grandparents if we had not been related but been the same age. I think I would have liked them and I hope they would have liked me too. ...Overcast skies today and a chance of clearing later...these skies depress my already depressed Mother....so pray for Sun....working on my greeting cards later and hope for some time outside as I like the grey skies for a change....have a good one and buy yourself a cupcake of your favorite cake...sit quietly and just enjoy!

IF Obsession

So obsessed you can't see straight! Have I ever been there? I don't think so. I sometimes feel my emotions run shallow as I watch people get soooo excited about some things in their lives. Celebrities, Coffee, Shoes, Television programs, the list continues. I remember being a little obsessed with my first real crush in high school. Walking home from school with my girl friends calling each other by the last name of our crushes. And writing my name as if I was his wife. That all sounds so silly now but then I was really hopeful that things would end up the way I was hoping. Not many of us girlfriends ended up with those crushes, we went on to others and made full and happy lives. I remember one of my friends used to boast that she was never going to clean toilets...My Mother used to laugh and say "Never say never". But the reality has been shown through the years and by gum, ( as they used to say) she hasn't had to clean many a toilet. Her high school crush became her husband and she has had help cleaning for most of her life. I now wish I would have made more outlandish statements....I will never want for money.... I will never be fat....I will never miss a love in my life.....statements about things I might like in might life right now. ...I'm not complaining,but money brings options, being at the right weight limits the things that are not uncomfortable doing, and having a male companion is always fun....still without those things in my life I am happy. I look into myself all the time and manage to keep myself busy and interested in most everything....I think being an artist is what gets me through the times that are not so good! ....I attended an Art Walk this Saturday. And as a participant I was ask to demonstrate my work. I don't really paint on demand so, I cut out some of my greeting cards I make and I gave them out to people brave enough to find out about what I was doing. I met a little 9 year old girl. She was so cute and excitedly told me that she was an artist too. I encouraged her to keep on working and every day she would get better. I gave her a couple of my prints and when I saw her later she was telling me how she was looking for all the fun things I had put into my Halloween print. Smiling ear to ear she left waving at me. I knew then that my art had done just what I had hoped....Make just one person SMILE.....so after all maybe I am Obsessed, obsessed with my art and the ability to reach a person on a personal level and to help them feel better!....If that is the case I am Obsessed!